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Tuesday, December 24, 2013

Merry Christmas 2013

All I can say is... Merry Christmas! I am remembering the birth of Jesus, I am remember what he did here on this earth, I am remembering how he died for me and you (before we even knew him), and I am remembering who I was and how I have been forgiven and given a new life. Feeling overly blessed. (undeserved... but feeling the grace).

Friday, December 20, 2013


This morning Margie called me to tell me of a situation I needed to pray over. This young husband and wife want to become Christian. They have been considering it for a while and finally have started to attend a Bhutanese church, but they have been getting resistance from her family. The wife was with the Christians practicing a Nepali dance for some up coming event and the father of the lady called and told the Pastor if he did not send his daughter home he would call the police and say he kidnapped her. They have been experiencing persecution here in a America... simply because they want to believe and follow Yahew. My heart is heavy!

My true feelings on all of the persecution is I AM SICK OF IT!

The Hindu father, I believe he is scared... maybe scared of the unknown. Scared to lose his daughter and not knowing anything about what her heart is longing for. The father hasn't had the opportunity to feel what his daughter is feeling. So, I pray for her and her family. I pray for the Lord to penetrate the Father's heart with the two-edged sword. And I pray for this family to press on and to seek what they feel so strongly... and that Yahweh will reveal himself to them.

I am done hearing about the whole Duck Dynasty issue as well. You wanna know why? Because this is going to happen. As the days become closer to the time of Christ's return, we will be persecuted! Yes, even us American's, who think we are to worthy to be questioned or persecuted over our freedom of speech and our beliefs. The day is going to come where we too will have to fight and stand up for our Savior and what he has done for us. We as believers here in the U.S. have lost what it really means to be a Christian. It doesn't mean go to church when you feel like it, or only go when there is a good Pastor preaching... We have lost the desire to get on our knees and cry out in a loud moan, sobbing, and seeking our Creator. We have lost it! It is not the end of the world that Duck Dynasty has lost their air time. What we need to focus our time and effort on is seeking our Lord, because the time is getting near where we to will be fighting for what we want to say and how we want to worship. Do I agree with what Phil said? Yes, but that is not the point... the point is now to see and feel the groaning and contractions of the world as it becomes closer to when Christ will return.

This blog post may seem to be going all over the place (and maybe it is)... But, here is a sweet Hindu family in America seeing, hearing, and believing in the Messiah and they are being restricted. Then here we are as Americans turning our backs against the Truth that has been here since the beginning of time... its right at our finger tips and we give up. We have little faith, because we can't see it, we can't feel it... so it must not be real. I think my heart aches more for Americans than for my Hindu friend seeking after the Lord.

Thursday, December 19, 2013

Over Flowing with Blessings

Today was exactly what I needed... I got to spend time with my Bhutanese friends. Not that they are different from my other friends... well... maybe they are. I don't sit with my friends like I sit and visit with them... nothing has to be said... nothing is expected... just to sit and enjoy each others company. We sat for about 2 hours in the ministries apartment just hanging out... I sat there listening and talking to them, having conversations in their beautiful Nepali language. I sat there watching them act just like you and me... laughing at each other. My heart is full when I sit and visit amongst my friends.

Another wonderful thing today was I got to spend time with Margie. Margie is full of wisdom. She is a missionary, evangelist and also the founder of Loaves & Fishes that serves the Bhutanese Refugees here in Houston. I shared my heart to her, the visions I have been having, and the prayers I am needing. Oh, what a beautiful woman of God she is... I try to soak up as much as I possibly can from her everytime we are together. You never know how much time we are given on this earth and how soon we may be taken away... I love this sweet lady and I pray one day when I grow up I will be just like her in my walk and faith in the Lord.

Then my day ended with my dear sister. I wasn't planning on visiting long with her, but then as I was leaving she said she had made some noodles for me that were not spicy. This is huge because I don't really care for spicy food and she made a dish for me that she knew I would like. My heart was full. So I stayed longer and ate this delicious meal and the great thing is she sat and ate with me. Usually I am the only one eating, so I took this time as a very special moment between the two of us. There was no husband around and the baby was sleeping. We had a quiet and good conversation. What a blessing to my soul this time was, because my sweet sister will be leaving Houston in a few months and I may never see her again. It makes me sad that her family is leaving, but these moments together... just like today I will treasure forever.

This January will be my 2 year anniversary serving the Bhutanese Refugees of Houston. I have learned so much about the people I love so dearly... I have learned how powerful love and relationships can be in the way to evangelize. I have made friendships I never thought in a million years and just because some of them may not worship Yahweh... I have faith and trust the time, love, and relationship between us will not be empty, but the Lord has a great plan for them. I pray that they will come to know Yahweh as their personal Lord and Savior, because I know with everything in me no one is never to far gone and the Lord is bigger than we could imagine.

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Quiet in the Chaos

It is late so my update might be all over the place, so please forgive me now. My feelings and thoughts are all over the place. I can't seem to concentrate on more than 1 or 2 things a day... maybe I am supposed to take one day at a time. Maybe it is because Christmas is so close and I haven't gotten everything done. LOL! Maybe it is my emotions on returning to India.

But, I also feel in a way I am being protected. Protected by a shield. The evil one, I know wants to attack, but I feel as if I have a force field around me. Monday I was focused on my home, Tuesday was a day full of preparing for India, Wednesday was full of preparation for Christmas, Thursday will be centered on the Bhutanese and finishing up Christmas prep, and Friday will be surrounded by my children as we celebrate this time of year at their school and entering into a break.

I know this is a time satan likes to squeeze his way into rattle anyone and everyone on a mission for God's kingdom, but I know I am being prayed for because I have felt protected.

Truthfully, it is one day at a time and no more right now and it feels good. I feel an over flowing of prayers and blessings upon me and my family. There are no words.

Monday, December 9, 2013

God's Kolkata 2013

If you know me or ever read my blog... then you know I have a heart for the nations. I especially have a unexplainable love for the Indian culture. The only thing I can say is it is a God thing. Two years ago I was sent to Kolkata, India by God to shape and mold me. Most of the time these mission trips are 95% to change you and 5% for who you are serving. So 2 years ago, that is what happened... God gave me this deep loving desire for Indians. I have since been involved with a ministry here in Houston that serves and loves on the Bhutanese Refugees. They have some Indian traits but also have a little Chinese traits as well. Hard to explain... Same, same but different. The last year in October God sent me to Bangladesh. Again, fell even more in love with my fellow Indian (Bengali) friends. I had a lot of growing happen from this trip as well.

This year has been quiet. I will be honest... I have become very comfortable with our way of life. Nothing really deep going on... just nice and calm. Well let me just tell you... my nice calmness has been rattled. Wednesday of last week I was helping in a WAM (worship arts ministry) class at church and I was chatting with some friends about coming to a India mission trip meeting... they thought maybe I could help describe a little more about applying the henna (I don't know). I made the comment on how I would love to go and my friend Kay, who leads the India trips, said well we still have space. I was thinkin' "WHAT! You have got to be crazy!" I told her I did not have $2000. She then said... Nothing is to big for God. $2000 to God is nothing... just room and board. She said just pray about it. I left thinking "WHAT!" but I kept it to myself. Thursday I woke up with it on my mind... the next few days I sought my God earnestly, he led me to Scripture to encourage me, I wept asking him not to give up on me and not to break my heart, I wept for I was scared of hearing "NO", I wept because I so desperately wanted to go, I wept because I knew he was breaking me and molding me, and I wept because I knew he held each tear in his hand and treasured them, I prayed constantly, he gave me visions that I did not realize were visions, and he cared for me as I gave him my heart and shared verbally to him. He told me to go by faith and take the money I had and put it down as a down payment of some sort. I put it off, but decided to do it Sunday. Sunday evening I was invited to go to a dinner with the India team. It was so fun because I go to hear the new-bees talk and ask about all the things they needed... it made me remember my first time over seas and how overwhelming that can be. WHAT DO I BRING!!! It was so good and I got a confirmation I was suppose to go!

Monday (today) rolled around and it was time to take my money in (my $610)! I walked in and Kay said something like Did you have any money dropped off at your door step? I said well kind of... I had a friend offer to pay for my trip as a gift from God. This friend and I actually talked Sunday evening and she told me God told her she was suppose to give me this money to send me to Kolkata. WHAT! Kay was shocked... I was shocked! It took me a good long time to wrap my mind around it all, because I have always had God speak to me and not speak through other people to tell me. I cried with excitement for this opportunity to return to the place that still holds a piece of my heart. I cried with excitement to see my brothers and sisters I have been longing to reunite with for 2 years.

Everything was set. Childcare for my children were all set and our lovely long-time friend is going to care for them after school and another childhood friend is going to care for the girls while Bob runs his marathon. I mean it has all been falling into place as if God himself were touching everything. (which I have no doubt he is) To top all of this off... I get a call from Kingsland (our church) and its Kay. (I was a little worried at first) She said you won't believe this. I just got an email from another individual who wants to pay for your trip. WHAT! Is that not conformation that I am suppose to go?!? I was in tears... who am I to even be privileged enough to be chosen for such a task. Don't get me wrong God has always provided but never on such a time restraint as this. Today was the last day to get tickets... to be part of this trip... TODAY! Who am I that I have been chosen?

I leave this post in awe! I have no words, but all Glory to God! Today he lead me to Psalm 86 and what peace it brings:

"Bend down, O Lord, and hear my prayer;
    answer me, for I need your help.
Protect me, for I am devoted to you.
    Save me, for I serve you and trust you.
    You are my God.

Be merciful to me, O Lord,
    for I am calling on you constantly.

Give me happiness, O Lord,
    for I give myself to you.
O Lord, you are so good, so ready to forgive,
    so full of unfailing love for all who ask for your help.
Listen closely to my prayer, O Lord;
    hear my urgent cry.
I will call to you whenever I’m in trouble,
    and you will answer me.

No pagan god is like you, O Lord.
    None can do what you do!
All the nations you made
    will come and bow before you, Lord;
    they will praise your holy name.

For you are great and perform wonderful deeds.
    You alone are God.

Teach me your ways, O Lord,
    that I may live according to your truth!
Grant me purity of heart,
    so that I may honor you.
With all my heart I will praise you, O Lord my God.
    I will give glory to your name forever,
for your love for me is very great.
    You have rescued me from the depths of death.
O God, insolent people rise up against me;
    a violent gang is trying to kill me.
    You mean nothing to them.
But you, O Lord,
    are a God of compassion and mercy,
slow to get angry
    and filled with unfailing love and faithfulness.
Look down and have mercy on me.
    Give your strength to your servant;
    save me, the son of your servant.
Send me a sign of your favor.
    Then those who hate me will be put to shame,
    for you, O Lord, help and comfort me."

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

Running the Race called Life

This morning while I was stretching I asked the Lord what he wanted me to read from the Bible (lately my mind has been everywhere and I have not heard)... He instantly told me James. I said "Okay. Where would you like me to begin?" I was told the first chapter. Okie Dokie then. And I read the title above the first section and it said Faith and Endurance. WOW, Lord! He wasn't joking when he told me to start in James 1.

I have been having a hard time making time for him, and how to balance work and my faith. When I do share my faith with my business it usually doesn't sound right. In my heart it sounds perfectly fine, but other people that hear it or read it don't agree with how I feel and it bothers them. I do believe that I am to do Advocare now as my business. It is going to free us from a lot of strongholds that are gripping my family pretty tight right now. I do believe he lays people on my heart, who I am to share this gift with or when he leads people to me. I see it as a gift. I was in a lot of pain when I was severely obese. I had a lot of emotion pain in my heart and the Lord worked it out and healed me from a lot of my pain while I/he transformed my body. I truly feel like a new person. He had a lot of healing to do inside of me during this last year and now I believe he is using me to share my story on my physical transformation and to let people know they are not stuck forever in this body... there is freedom from the chain of obesity.

I know there are a whole lot of men and women out there, who are uncomfortable and who are being told by the enemy... "You can never change." "You aren't worth it." "It is to hard and you will give up." I know people are hearing this because I heard it... but it is possible! People are doing it everyday and Advocare is a healthy and energizing way to do it. Now, don't get me wrong... there is no such thing as a magic pill. You have to work at it, but Advocare gives you the tools to be successful and feel amazing at the same time.

Back to James 1... God supplies me everyday for what I need and I ask him to give me what I need for every new day and today he gave me a pep talk about Endurance. If I keep my eyes on him and put down the worldly things that tend to catch my eye... He will be all I need. He fuels my Endurance! Just like everyone else I get distracted by the fast pace of this life, but this life I am running is not my own but it is His and he is all I need to be successful in what He has laid out before my feet.

And this is what I leave you with... "But don’t just listen to God’s word. You must do what it says. Otherwise, you are only fooling yourselves. For if you listen to the word and don’t obey, it is like glancing at your face in a mirror. You see yourself, walk away, and forget what you look like. But if you look carefully into the perfect law that sets you free, and if you do what it says and don’t forget what you heard, then God will bless you for doing it." -James 1:22-25

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Where is HOPE?

Hope. This word has been on my mind for a while. Why do we run from it? Why do we think it isn't real? It seems like to me that HOPELESS is used more than HOPE. Do we think we are completely hopeless that there is nothing for us to hope in? I mean all the time we put other things in front of what HOPE could do for you. Does this make sense? Let me break this down...

What do you put your HOPE in? If you had a life threatening illness in your body, where would you go to find HOPE and peace? I mean some people put there hope in the earth and they think the earth can heal you. The earth is a big floating mass with living things on it. Some people put their hope in rocks, plants, the sun, etc. What do those do for you? Rocks can be pretty... but that only lasts for a little while. Plants can be nice and smell nice, but eventually they die or I lose interest. The sun is awesome because it warms me and gives me vitamins I need, but I complain about it and lose interest. But, I am attracted to the light... more than any of the other objects I mentioned because I was created by God, who is light. Now this is not just any old light... it isn't part of any other religion... this light is not a god or rolled up in any of the things that some people worship. No... No... No... this is a light that only a few understand. Many people are very confused about this light, but this light was God breathed and was created to attract us because He is Light. This light is in me. When you truly believe the Truth (and when I mean Truth... I mean Scripture). My HOPE is in this bright Light... If I had a life threatening disease in my body He would be who I would go to and put my HOPE in. No rock or plant or sun could heal me, but my Light who is the one true God could! To many times we make things to difficult for ourselves... we let other things take the place of really what can take care of us and we will put our hope in the earthly things that can do nothing except give us a temporary satisfaction.

People lose HOPE in dreaming. I think this happens because we go out into the big world, get a job, and we get settled in comfortable living a comfortable mediocre life. We get married and have kids and are dreams are completely sucked out of us by then. Am I right? Nothing is more true than kids getingt more expensive as they get older. You just think diapers are expensive... then when they get older they want to ride horses, dance, and be in every activity known by man. What is your answer when your kids ask to be part of all these activities... maybe just one of these activities?? Is it NO? Aren't you sick to death of saying no? I have gotten so sick of saying no and hearing myself say no... it makes me want to vomit! When do we decide to change? Does this mean get a 2nd or 3rd job... NO! When is enough... ENOUGH? I have had enough and I am taking LIFE into my own hands... and I have found HOPE again. My dreams are being dreamed again. Don't get the first HOPE I talked about confused with what I am talking about now. But, this HOPE is to have a second chance on everything you ever dreamed about long ago.

But, then there is the question... Are ready to work for this HOPE? To push yourself to a new limit? To say who cares what anyone else thinks because I am fighting for my FAMILY and to DREAM! I will tell you that HOPE of having the freedom of dreaming is in one company that has been around for 20 years... Advocare. Don't shut me out! I am not kidding... my financial freedom, of being able to say YES is happening through Advocare.

But usually as soon as you mention a direct sales company people turn up their nose and turn away not even giving it a chance. Same thing happens to eternal HOPE... people can't believe there is One God, who has done all that the Truth tells us has happened. They turn their noses up and walk away and put their HOPE in things that they can wrap their minds around. Being able to wrap your mind around something seems easier, but in the end it won't.

Working 2 to 3 jobs may sounds more logical (to you not to me)... but life can be A LOT easier. You just have to have HOPE.