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Friday, December 30, 2011

All my Lord and nothing more

These past couple of week I have felt attacked. Attacked by satan... I have had bad sleep, I have been so tired, I have had pain in my jaw and a throbbing tooth, I have had another type of infection thing flare up, and have been having hip pain. The majority of these ailments have flared up in the past week. But let me share with you a little story...

Last week when I began to have this jaw pain I was thinking nothing of it because sometimes I have jaw pain when I chew to much gum (weird I know but what can a gum chewer do?), but it started making me realize this isn't the same thing as my "normal" jaw pain from gum. I came to this realization when everything was closed for Christmas and of course this is when it really began to bother me. So the day after Christmas I text messaged a friend of mine, whose husband is a pediatric dentist and they refereed me to a couple of dentists and she also told me to call the emergency number. I didn't really feel like it was an emergency, but I did. I called a few dentist emergency numbers but they didn't take new patients as emergency cases. Nice right? So I gave up and thought I would pursue it more tomorrow. Before I went to bed I took 3 Tylenol so it would help with any inflammation and help me sleep and it did help.

I woke up the next morning and I felt like it was getting better, so I blew it off and said I would be fine but as soon as I get back from India I will go to the dentist (if you don't know... I really REALLY dislike dentists). Well... I did not take Tylenol Wednesday night... I thought I would just try it. Well I did not sleep well and around 3 AM I got up and had to take Tylenol because my tooth was throbbing... it didn't hurt but it just throbbed like there was so much pressure. Thursday morning I knew something was not right, but I still didn't want to go to the dentist. I had to much going on. I talked to Bob and he said I should go so I wouldn't have a problem in India. What a smart man he is!

I gave in and I called a dentist's office that took our insurance but they were closed. Then I called another office and they just had an appointment open up... WHAT! The lady who made my appointment transferred me to the lady who deals with the insurance and I was telling her about the tooth that was bothering me and that 6 years ago I had a root canal done and that now it was throbbing. She recommended me call the Endodontist who did my root canal because if it was the tooth that is causing issues that the dentist wouldn't be able to do anything anyways and the dentist would send me to the Endodontist. She was trying to save me money... to go straight to where I needed to go instead of running all around and spending all this money. She gave me the number to the Endodontist I saw 6 years ago and I called.

When I called I told the secretary I didn't know if this was the office I had my root canal done or not and she check and it was! I told her my problem and told her the story and that I was leaving the country in a couple of days and she asked me how close I was to the office. I told her I was really close and I could be there very soon. I told her I had to find someone to watch my children and she gave me a little extra time, but I GOT IN!! I am super thankful for my friend, who was able to watch my children on such short notice... it makes me want to be more like her. :o) I got the the Endodontist's office and I got right in to see Dr. Garza and I had x-rays done and he was right there to tell me the problem.

It was bad news... I have an abscess under the crown of my tooth I had the root canal done 6 years ago. It needs to be cleaned out and that means a whole new root canal. UGH! Dr. Garza was ready to do the root canal right then and there! All I could think about was I needed to talk to Bob. LOL! I asked him how much it was going to be and he said between $1300 and $1400. I told him I could not pay that right now... personally all I could think about was India and how much that cost and how was I supposed to get this money. LOL! But, he did have another option... take a very strong antibiotic while gone and then come back and have the root canal done. I told him that is what I would have to do. Dr. Garza was a huge blessing... he was very understanding and talked me through it all. He did give me WORST case scenario... if the pain is so bad and swelling begins and gets horrible that I need to find a dentist or a Endodontist and have a root canal done in India or WORSTER case scenario... have my entire tooth removed. LOL! I know very humorous!

But, other than being blessed by an awesome Endodontist is he gave me a discount. He gave me 25% of this visit and 25% of my root canal... my root canal was now going to cost me $1000! I know that is still is a lot of money, but Dr. Garza did not have to help me out, but he did! I will have to say even though this whole situation didn't work out how I would want it too, but I do know God had His hand in it all. I was in tears all the way to my friend's house to pick up the girls. Tears of joy and tears of serving an AWEsome God! I am in AWE of Him! I know without a doubt He is going to blow my mind even more while we are in India.

This is a little of what God has been up to these past few days and today... I have been covered, blanketed by His perfect PEACE! I was talking with a good friend earlier and I couldn't explain it, but now I have figured out... it is His peace.

"The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and His understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not grow faint." Isaiah 40

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Ray of Hope


Merry Christmas, my friends! It was a wonderful holiday here in the Greene house! It was so nice not to have to do anything or go anywhere... well mostly because everything was closed and we couldn't. :o) It was a great Christmas and I will post pictures tomorrow.

I thought I would let you know what it going on... the Lord is doing some incredible things in my life (our life). You all know I am going to India in 2 days and the team I am flying across the world with is AMAZING! God really knew what He was doing when he put this team together (well... He always knows what He is doing!). I don't really know why God has placed me on this team... yes, I know... I love Him and we are all called to spread the good news... but why me? Why am I going to India? What is my purpose? I pray this will be revealed while there or when I return... but no matter what I know God has big things planned!

A few of us are going to have the opportunity to share our stories and I have said I will share mine... so the past week I have been trying to write it out and I think I have finished tonight. I pray through the testament of my story one heart will be tugged at... I pray the Lord will use my story or hard times to show a young woman there is always hope and love... a love that is indescribable. I pray they will hear that.

As I was writing out my testimony all I could think about were the people that were part of it all... some of them hurt me and some of them helped me, but it seemed like there was more hurt than help. Is that just what happens when you don't know the Lord? I have read it over and over and there is so much hurt that has really helped make me who I am today. One day I will share it with y'all, but right now I am not brave enough. :o) This will actually be the first time I share my story full and complete with anybody. So, if you would like to pray for me. I would really appreciate it. :o)

If you would like to pray more specifically for our India mission trip, feel free to use this as a prayer guide:

-Pray for the India Justice Ministry Mission Trip (12 Women) that leaves today, Jan 1-12, to minister to women/girls caught in brothels in Kolkata, India
-Pray for the women/girls of these brothels to be delivered and come to a personal relationship with Jesus Christ as Savior
-Pray for the team as they teach sewing and jewelry making skills as a alternate form of income
-Pray for God to use the presentation of the Jesus Film to touch the hearts of each woman/girl with the gospel
-Pray the team’s eyes will be open to needs and they will be bold beyond their comfort zone
-Pray for the team’s safety as they move around on the busy streets of Kolkata
-Pray for team members Kay Smith (leader) and daughter Kaytlin Norman, Brenda Debor and daughter Lauren, Jana Soroski and daughter Rachael, Sterling Greene, Barb Willhoit, Jill Fields, Kim Torti, Janet Caldwell, and Christine Smith.

Friday, December 16, 2011

My Hiding Place

As my children are having a quiet time (which was in desperate need) I am going to share what is going on with me and my heart as I prepare for the India mission trip.

The Lord is bringing me aware of my many faults and sins these past few weeks. He has been showing me love that I knew of but was not participating in... my loss. But, as He has been opening my eyes and my heart I have again began to grieve. Grieving once again for the lost and the people who truly don't know His love... I believe my grieving started again because once again I was brought down of my high horse and was shown His true love. I thank Him for this humbleness and lowliness... it makes me truly remember how holy and righteous He truly is.

Yesterday, there were a few things that happened that hurt me and I think because of this hurt satan had a chance to weasel his way in and he did! He made me doubt for a few minutes, but I knew that was not from the Lord. The Lord is not fear or doubt... He is steady, my Rock, and my Fortress. I am thankful for prayer and the mighty name of Jesus Christ. I am thankful for His name which makes the demons shudder. I did feel a perfect peace when I fell asleep and I know that could have been from no one but my Lord Jesus Christ.

The past few months I have been reading Isaiah to the girls in the morning and I have been comforted once again by the words of God.

"Strengthen the feeble hands,
steady the knees that give way;
say to those with fearful hearts,
“Be strong, do not fear;
your God will come,
he will come with vengeance;
with divine retribution
he will come to save you.”

Then will the eyes of the blind be opened
and the ears of the deaf unstopped.
Then will the lame leap like a deer,
and the mute tongue shout for joy.
Water will gush forth in the wilderness
and streams in the desert.
The burning sand will become a pool,
the thirsty ground bubbling springs.
In the haunts where jackals once lay,
grass and reeds and papyrus will grow.

And a highway will be there;
it will be called the Way of Holiness;
it will be for those who walk on that Way.
The unclean will not journey on it;
wicked fools will not go about on it.
No lion will be there,
nor any ravenous beast;
they will not be found there.
But only the redeemed will walk there,
and those the LORD has rescued will return.
They will enter Zion with singing;
everlasting joy will crown their heads.
Gladness and joy will overtake them,
and sorrow and sighing will flee away." Isaiah 35

I have perfect faith in His word. He is my peace in troubled times, He is my Rock when I feel shakened, and He is my Fortress that protects me.

This morning I also did my devotional as I prepare to go to India and it is exactly what I needed! Satan has been trying to attack me and today's devotional was exactly on that... "When Jesus said "Let's go" and you obeyed you did not receive a free pass from all your trouble. In fact, satan is not to pleased with your decision. Let your faith arise as the time nears, knowing that "He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world."- Jack Hempfling

Praise the LORD for He knows me and knows what is ALWAYS best for me!

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Isaiah 30

“Woe to the obstinate children,”
declares the LORD,
“to those who carry out plans that are not mine,
forming an alliance, but not by my Spirit,
heaping sin upon sin;
who go down to Egypt
without consulting me;
who look for help to Pharaoh’s protection,
to Egypt’s shade for refuge.
But Pharaoh’s protection will be to your shame,
Egypt’s shade will bring you disgrace.
Though they have officials in Zoan
and their envoys have arrived in Hanes,
everyone will be put to shame
because of a people useless to them,
who bring neither help nor advantage,
but only shame and disgrace.”
A prophecy concerning the animals of the Negev:

Through a land of hardship and distress,
of lions and lionesses,
of adders and darting snakes,
the envoys carry their riches on donkeys’ backs,
their treasures on the humps of camels,
to that unprofitable nation,
to Egypt, whose help is utterly useless.
Therefore I call her
Rahab the Do-Nothing.

Go now, write it on a tablet for them,
inscribe it on a scroll,
that for the days to come
it may be an everlasting witness.
For these are rebellious people, deceitful children,
children unwilling to listen to the LORD’s instruction.
They say to the seers,
“See no more visions!”
and to the prophets,
“Give us no more visions of what is right!
Tell us pleasant things,
prophesy illusions.
Leave this way,
get off this path,
and stop confronting us
with the Holy One of Israel!”

Therefore this is what the Holy One of Israel says:

“Because you have rejected this message,
relied on oppression
and depended on deceit,
this sin will become for you
like a high wall, cracked and bulging,
that collapses suddenly, in an instant.
It will break in pieces like pottery,
shattered so mercilessly
that among its pieces not a fragment will be found
for taking coals from a hearth
or scooping water out of a cistern.”

This is what the Sovereign LORD, the Holy One of Israel, says:

“In repentance and rest is your salvation,
in quietness and trust is your strength,
but you would have none of it.
You said, ‘No, we will flee on horses.’
Therefore you will flee!
You said, ‘We will ride off on swift horses.’
Therefore your pursuers will be swift!
A thousand will flee
at the threat of one;
at the threat of five
you will all flee away,
till you are left
like a flagstaff on a mountaintop,
like a banner on a hill.”

Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you;
therefore he will rise up to show you compassion.
For the LORD is a God of justice.
Blessed are all who wait for him!

People of Zion, who live in Jerusalem, you will weep no more. How gracious he will be when you cry for help! As soon as he hears, he will answer you. Although the Lord gives you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, your teachers will be hidden no more; with your own eyes you will see them. Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.” Then you will desecrate your idols overlaid with silver and your images covered with gold; you will throw them away like a menstrual cloth and say to them, “Away with you!”

He will also send you rain for the seed you sow in the ground, and the food that comes from the land will be rich and plentiful. In that day your cattle will graze in broad meadows. The oxen and donkeys that work the soil will eat fodder and mash, spread out with fork and shovel. In the day of great slaughter, when the towers fall, streams of water will flow on every high mountain and every lofty hill. The moon will shine like the sun, and the sunlight will be seven times brighter, like the light of seven full days, when the LORD binds up the bruises of his people and heals the wounds he inflicted.

See, the Name of the LORD comes from afar,
with burning anger and dense clouds of smoke;
his lips are full of wrath,
and his tongue is a consuming fire.
His breath is like a rushing torrent,
rising up to the neck.
He shakes the nations in the sieve of destruction;
he places in the jaws of the peoples
a bit that leads them astray.
And you will sing
as on the night you celebrate a holy festival;
your hearts will rejoice
as when people playing pipes go up
to the mountain of the LORD,
to the Rock of Israel.
The LORD will cause people to hear his majestic voice
and will make them see his arm coming down
with raging anger and consuming fire,
with cloudburst, thunderstorm and hail.
The voice of the LORD will shatter Assyria;
with his rod he will strike them down.
Every stroke the LORD lays on them
with his punishing club
will be to the music of timbrels and harps,
as he fights them in battle with the blows of his arm.
Topheth has long been prepared;
it has been made ready for the king.
Its fire pit has been made deep and wide,
with an abundance of fire and wood;
the breath of the LORD,
like a stream of burning sulfur,
sets it ablaze.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011


The past few weeks our Pastor has been preaching on LOVE... "What's Love Got To Do With It?"... EVERYTHING!!! I have been consumed with this lately... because I am wretched and I don't deserve this unconditional, undying, unfathomable LOVE that my Father gives me every minute of every day. But, even though I don't deserve this LOVE... He is shows me grace and mercy and LOVES me no matter what.

The reason I don't think I LOVE well is because I judge... for some reason I feel like I have the right to judge and look at people the way God has all authority to do. That is so not right!

Another reason I don't LOVE well is because really... deep down... I believe I am better than the next guy/women.

One other reason I don't LOVE well is because I have blinders on...

So yes I do this... if we are truthful we all do it at some point and this breaks my heart. I pray the LORD changes my mind and thinking to how He thinks and sees... I want my heart to break for what makes His heart break. I want to LOVE without anything blocking my LOVE... I want whatever is blocking it to disappear... I want to have and share the LOVE of Christ.

I know I don't do a very good job... I know I hold back when people are in need, but I am trying. I am trying with everything in me to be more LOVING and think of others before myself, but it is so HARD! It is HARD to LOVE the unlovable... maybe it is HARD to LOVE the unlovable because I am unlovable. What do you think?

Maybe I am being to hard on myself, but this is how I feel... I don't LOVE well! This is a HUGE weakness of mine. Lord, consume me of your PERFECT LOVE.

Friday, December 2, 2011

Prayer for India

If you don't know I am preparing to go on a mission trip to India very soon. We were given these devotional books by the leader of our group called "A Daily Devotional Before You Go" and it probably more geared toward teens going on mission trips but it is amazing! A simply everyday devotional to prepare our hearts before we head to the ends of the earth.

Anyways... I am a little behind on my devotionals because of Thanksgiving and all the preparations with that, but I am back on track. :o) The prayers in this devotionals are so simple but so powerful. I walk away crying or my hearted touched after these prayers. I thought I would share a few of them...

"GO therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit." Matthew 28:19

Lord, I make myself available to You for the carrying out of Your last wishes. I purpose with all my heart to "execute" Your will and testament, which says that I (Your child) and property You have entrusted to me shall be used to take the gospel to the nations. Prepare my heart for all that You will have for me to do, so that I can help advance the gospel as You commanded in Your Word. Amen.

"GO into all the world and preach the gospel to every creature... And they went out and preached everywhere, the Lord working with them and confirming the word through the accompanying signs. " Mark 16:15, 20

Father, give us sensitivity in our hearts and to Your voice, that we may discover the spiritual forces at work in the lives of those whom You are sending us. Thank You that the weapons of our warfare (Your truth, Your Holy Spirit, Your Name, and the armor of God) are not feeble but mighty through God for pulling down strongholds. Use us to minister to others by setting them free from the enemy's lies and oppression. Amen.

I couldn't have said it any better... I am so thankful for God's Word!

Thursday, November 17, 2011


I am sure I have blogged on this very word before... Faithfulness. This is all I can think of these past few days is of our Father's faithfulness to His beloved. We are his beloved... I still have issues with being called beloved because I believe I am sinful, wretched, and undeserving... but when I think this the Holy Spirit that is dwelling inside of me tells me otherwise. It tells me of the Father's love for me and even though I can not wrap my mind around His never ending love... He is the Lover of my Soul and He is the only One that truly knows me and understands me.

So, back to His faithfulness... I sometimes forget about His faithfulness, but lately it has been consuming my thoughts. I think it has been consuming my thoughts because all the feelings I have been dealing with lately. If you haven't noticed I haven't blogged in a while because of all that is going on with my best friend, Lyndsay and her disease she is fighting (Hodgkin's Lymphoma), the hurting I am feeling from friends and family not truly believing in the One true God and the Word he made by breathing it, and my heart which is grieving... but with this word faithfulness has done something consuming and overwhelming inside of me.

The LORD has been so faithful to me and my family. The LORD was faithful to provide us $5000 when I found out of my cancer, He brought me through my disease and now I am stronger and continually growing in my faith, He convicted my Spirit to homeschool my girls and continues to show favor to us, He provided the funds to go to Israel and He held that promise that He made to me as I had to humble myself and ask for financial help, He brought us through a long waiting period as we had our house on the market for sale and he provided a house for our every need, and He continues to pursue me and love me through every earthly feeling I have, through every concern He tends to take from me so it will not burden me anymore... "For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Matthew 11:29. That is why I am here now to write about His great faithfulness.

He is in control of it all and I know I will never lose my faith and I will grow stronger in Him always! He never gives up on me and never forsakes me... so it makes me think... Why do I give up in Him? Why do you give up on Him? Why do we lose heart so easily? Why don't we put our full trust in Him? For all things? Why do we question who God is? He does not contradict himself and his Word is always true through the entire text. He is faithful in His love and how deeply He desires us... YES! He desires a relationship with you! I didn't know this until I was 24... He never gives up! Faithfulness... at its finest!

Monday, November 14, 2011

My Heart is Rejoicing

Hailee has been growing her hair out for Locks of Love for a while... we found out in August that it wasn't quite long enough so we waited. Hailee really wanted a feather extension, so I told we would get her hair cut in November after her birthday party (she had a Rapunzel birthday party... she had to have long hair) and we would get her a feather for her birthday.

Well the day has come and Hailee had about 7 inches that she could donate to Locks of Love for a child, who didn't want to be bald because of a disease. This day has made me very aware of Hailee's heart and how giving she truly is... I had a glimpse of her future and what I will be praying for here on out. I am thankful for this child God has given me...

Before... this gives you an idea how long it really was.

Half way there...

She was so proud.

Hailee loving on her sister.

What a precious child of God.

I have been in tears today just because of the sacrifice she has made for someone else. This is something she has been anticipating for a while and to give on the day she should be receiving just made me feel so much honor for being able to call her daughter. I got a taste of how our Father feels when we do things for Him and take ourselves out of the situation. I pray I will never forget this day and the feeling I felt throughout. Praise God for creating Hailee!

7 Years Old TODAY!

Today my sweet Hailee turns 7 years old! Can you believe it? Where did the time go? I remember going into labor with her and being over joyed that she was finally her with us. I held her almost 24/7 for the first couple weeks over her life because I was so happy and couldn't believe this child was mine. I love her so much!!

I am completely blessed! My heart is full of my earthly desires! Thank you, Lord!!!

Monday, October 10, 2011

My Heart is Aching

My heart is aching for the lost of this world... for the lost who I am close with, who maybe I could make a difference. But, the ones close to me are always the hardest to speak to about the Truth, the Light, and the Way. I don't know why that is... it is so hard to share my heart with the ones I love most. It is almost like I am scared of them judging me in a way that would change the way the look at me or talk to me. But, really I want to speak with gentleness and respect in a bold way to bring glory to my Father.

Why is it so hard to to believe the Truth? Why do some think they have to add things to such perfect Truth? Yes, I know satan has a huge hand in it all, but why do we have to put so much faith in worldly things and not just put our full trust in the Maker. The Maker, who has made it all, who continues to create, the Author of the Word, and Perfecter of you and me. How can we question God, who made a perfect sinless Man and this perfect sinless Man came and lived on this earth. How can some say he never was here? It is writen in Truth that he was. I don't care what you say about this Truth and that it isn't complete... God wrote this Word for us... a love letter and a way to live our lives. But then some just spit on it and make their own way and this my friends is how satan entangles you in his web.

I am not saying I am perfect because the Lord knows I am not, but one thing I do know/do is I put my faith in him. I know he has a perfect plan and he is love I could never explain. My heart is greiving for you, who don't know his love and feel like you know what it is all about... because truthfully no one knows... no one knows his plan... but if you don't have faith and don't believe in God and his Son who died for our nasty sin, or don't know that when we become believers in him that we are made white as now, or don't know this grace and mercy we are given every single day by the Author and Perfecter of our lives, or if you are constantly searching for something but unsure what you are searching for it could just be him and his love that never fails.

There is nothing like a trial in your life that makes you search for him who is bigger and better than what we could ever make up. This may sound horrible, but I am praying that the Lord gives you a trail or struggle, because when we are at our lowest that is when we have no where to go but to look up and put or total faith in the Lover of our soul. So if I know you and you are not a believer know I am praying for you and your soul, because I want you with me in eternity with Jehovah-Yahweh (God's divine salvation).

Who are we to question him? Or make up our own ways?

“Where were you when I laid the earth’s foundation?
Tell me, if you understand.

“Who shut up the sea behind doors
when it burst forth from the womb,
when I made the clouds its garment
and wrapped it in thick darkness,
when I fixed limits for it
and set its doors and bars in place,
when I said, ‘This far you may come and no farther;
here is where your proud waves halt’?

“Have you journeyed to the springs of the sea
or walked in the recesses of the deep?
Have the gates of death been shown to you?
Have you seen the gates of the deepest darkness?
Have you comprehended the vast expanses of the earth?
Tell me, if you know all this.
Does the rain have a father?
Who fathers the drops of dew?
From whose womb comes the ice?
Who gives birth to the frost from the heavens
when the waters become hard as stone,
when the surface of the deep is frozen?

“Can you bind the chains of the Pleiades?
Can you loosen Orion’s belt?
Can you bring forth the constellations in their seasons
or lead out the Bear with its cubs?
Do you know the laws of the heavens?
Can you set up God’s dominion over the earth?

“Can you raise your voice to the clouds
and cover yourself with a flood of water?
Do you send the lightning bolts on their way?
Do they report to you, ‘Here we are’?
Who provides food for the raven
when its young cry out to God
and wander about for lack of food?

“Would you discredit my justice?
Would you condemn me to justify yourself?
Do you have an arm like God’s,
and can your voice thunder like his?
Then adorn yourself with glory and splendor,
and clothe yourself in honor and majesty.
Unleash the fury of your wrath,
look at all who are proud and bring them low,
look at all who are proud and humble them,
crush the wicked where they stand.
Bury them all in the dust together;
shroud their faces in the grave.
Then I myself will admit to you
that your own right hand can save you."- Job

Friday, October 7, 2011

Busyness and No Words

I am sorry for my absence, but I have been so busy. Busy with just life and my heart... well my heart is greiving. It is greiving for a few different reasons that I am not going to get into right now, but one of the things my heart is greiving over is my best friend, Lyndsay. Lyndsay was diagnosed with stage 3 Lymphoma a few weeks ago and she has begun her chemo treatment this past Monday. My heart aches for her because I know her so well and I know what is greiving her heart as well. I love her like a sister. I can tell you one thing though... the Lord is with her and I know he has a great and mighty plan for her life, her husband's life, her 2 children's lives, and for the lives of everyone she knows. Praise Jehovah-Jireh!! The Lord her provider is providing the love, comfort, and peace that she so desperately needs right now. I pray Jehovah-Rapha will heal her sick body from this nasty cancer and that the chemo would penitrate the cancer cells and blast them gone. I believe God creates everything (even if it is through earthly people) and I believe chemo was created to help heal sick bodies from cancer.

I have created a blog for Lyndsay and for all her family and friends who are concerned about her and want to know the latest news. Please pray for my dear friend and her struggles and the struggles to come.

Sunday, September 11, 2011

First Night of LifeGroups

I am working with 10th grade girls this year. We had our first meeting tonight and I had a hard time fitting in since they all knew eachother so well. :o) After dinner and some socializing we sat down went over some rules (no one likes rules), then I shared my testimony (which was hard), and then we did a fun little get to know you game (which was more for me since there are 12 girls in the group). It was a great night!! Ever since they left all I can think about is "Praise the Father, Praise the Son" song. So I am going to share with you the lyrics. :o)

O sov'reign God, O matchless King-
the saints adore, the angels sing
and fall before the throne on grace
to you belongs the highest praise.

These sufferings, this passing tide
under Your wings I will abide,
and every enemy shall flee;
You are my hope and victory.

Praise the Father, Praise the Son.
Praise the Spirit, Three in One.
Clothed in power and in grace
the name above all other names.

To the valley, for my soul;
Thy great descent has made me whole!
You word my heart has welcomed home;
now peace like water ever flows.

Praise the Father, Praise the Son.
Praise the Spirit, Three in One.
Clothed in power and in grace
the name above all other names.

Praise the Father, Praise the Son.
Praise the Spirit, Three in One.
Clothed in power and in grace
the name above all other names.

Yours is the kingdom,
yours is the power.
Your is the glory forever.
Yours is the kingdom,
yours is the power.
Your is the glory forever.

Praise the Father, Praise the Son.
Praise the Spirit, Three in One.
Clothed in power and in grace
the name above all other names.
The name above all other names.

Praying for these sweet Spirits and what the Lord has for them. Have a great night!

Tuesday, September 6, 2011


I am in tears... tears as I watch the news and what these fires have done all over Texas. I am so fortunate and thankful for not being in harms way. Hundreds... maybe thousnads of people have lost their home and a few have lost their lives because of the wildfires. If you think of Texas... PLEASE pray for RAIN! The whole state needs it so bad!

We live pretty far from the fires (about 50 to 100 miles away), but still we are surrounded by smoke and ashes.

Thursday, September 1, 2011


So... the last few days I have been thinking as I watch the hummingbird flitter and fly. I can't help, but think that they know their Creator. "Let all creation rejoice before the LORD, for he comes, he comes to judge the earth. He will judge the world in righteousness and the peoples in his faithfulness." Psalm 96:13. Absolutely... no question to it! Then I begin to ponder the human race... the ones made in the image of God... the holy face is what we have. How is it the perfect creation... the very image of God turns their back on Him? How is it the human race has no sanctity for life? The very creation that is to care for the land, birds, and
animals. I mean don't get me wrong... a lot of you do take life seriously and do what God has called us to do, but truthfully there are so many lost out there... not knowing where they came from. Some people just fight and push back so hard it is almost impossible... but thankful for God, who created me and you.

I don't know if you truly believe that God created you or me... or if we accidentally were formed by dust... or maybe you think an alien planted us here on this earth, but just think... how could that be? I truthfully want to know... how could these complex bodies be so different and made so perfectly without a mighty power and love from Someone. How do you explain a creator like a Hummingbird? Truthfully, I have been worried for my new hummingbird friends... scared they will be eaten by a hawk or something bigger than them, but I was reminded how perfect they were made. They are fast, swift, smart, and can dodge another bird like no other. If you think about all the different creators on this earth and try to compare them to another... sit and think about how different these two creators are from each other.

I have time to think about life as humans as well. How quick we are on this earth and how quick we are gone. How we can get sick instantly and not have a clue what is going on, but there is One who does know... he knows when we are babies what will happen when we are 30. I can't imagine anything but a powerful one true majestic God, Lover of our soul, to be able to put this all together. Birth, growing, sickness, and death... it was all put together so perfectly. Do you agree? If not, think about it... I was told a story from a very good friend... she was in the ER waiting to get back and see a doctor, but they were all busy because there was someone who died, but not long after that life was taken a new life was born. She knew that their was a birth because the hospital plays music every time a baby is born. Praise God for his perfect timing!

I have a very good friend, who is sick... possibly cancer. I am sad. I can't help, but think of what God has done in her life thus far... so so much, but then she is now very sick. How could this be? Is God doing something here? Is He trying to teach her or tell her something through this? What I do know for sure is.... He is going to get glory out of this whole thing. I have been praying for His healing to fall upon her, but what I do keep hearing is "I will be glorified." He is so powerful... it blows my mind! I am in tears right now thinking about Him...

Artist: Heather Williams
Album: This Time Around

Jesus, please come, please come today
Heal me, hear me, be near me I pray
I have fallen so far, flat on my face
I’m in need of Your grace today
I stumble and fall, but in spite of it all
Your love always stays the same

Jesus, please come, please come today
Break me, mold me, use me I pray
But don’t give up on me now, I’m so close to you now
I’m in need of your grace today
Wipe the dirt off my face, hold me in Your embrace
Your love always saves the day

On my knees, here I fall, in spite of it all

And though it seems hard, I still trust in your love

I have fallen so far, flat on my face
I’m in need of your grace today

Sing hallelujah, amen

Sorry if this is all over the place... it sounded a lot better in my head earlier, but LIFE. What does it mean to you and how can we bring glory to God through this short time we are here?

Monday, August 29, 2011

Beautiful Creation

We have been truly blessed by our Creator! He has blessed us with these small flying creatures that you rarely see.... Hummingbirds! Thank you my Father in heaven for graciously giving us something beautiful to look at as this day has been difficult. I priase you and will always remember the sacrifice and the mercy you give me every day. In your mighty strong name.

Monday, August 22, 2011

First Day of 1st Grade

Today was the Greene School's first day of school. Very thankful for the Lord and what he has called our family to do. Of course there are plenty of days that are so hard, but there are days like today that out way all the bad days. The days when things flow so well, the days I helped Hailee learn to read and now hearing her read is music to my ears, watching Heidi tell me her letters and counting... words will never describe how my heart feels during these moments and the only One who will understand is my Father (and of course my fellow HS moms). Praise God for those people who make the curriculum and those who put free HS activities out there to share with others all over the world! Here are a few pictures of our day...

I made a special breakfast... LOL! Actually Bob went and bought a special breakfast for our first day 1st grade... DONUTS!!!

Breakfast of Champions!!!

Heidi working hard using her roll paint... and yes it got on her PJs. :o)

Hailee working hard on her math... sitting at her new desk and in her new chair.

Our school room. I am beyond thankful for this house and the space it has for our family. It is still is major mess but things are beginning to come together. ;o)

A Few Fun Things Goin' On

Here are the few pictures I promised from the last post I posted. These are a few pictures I have taken through our busy month. Sorry their aren't more, but like I said we have been busy. :o)

Last Wednesday we went to a small water park as a reward for Hailee finishing her reading/phonics curriculum. It was a lot of fun! Here is Heidi with "Ray". She loves these mascot type things... she is always running up to them giving them hugs.

Hailee looks thrilled... doesn't she? She never has been one that cares for these mascots, like "Ray". She just sat there keeping an eye on the tubes we had while Heidi danced with "Ray".

Here Heidi is dancing with "Ray".

Here she is again... dancin' away...

Here are the girls eating their expensive ice cream from the ice cream man.

Heidi got a Dora the Explorer ice cream and it was melting so fast.

Here is Hailee enjoying her Bubble Gum ice cream. Yes, she was posing. :o)

This picture was taken in our old house while Hailee was at Aunt Camp. Heidi loves glasses and posing with them on.

Heidi got this dog thing that came with these green glasses. She ripped the glasses off the dog and put them on herself and got on her rockin' horse.

You go girl!!!

Friday, August 19, 2011

Good Things

WOW! This has been way to long... 1 WHOLE MONTH OF NO BLOGGING! Sorry :o).

Let me fill you in on some details... We closed and moved into our new house August 1 and we absolutely love it here! I am still unpacking but hoping to get most of it completed this weekend. There has been so much going on in between... Water day with our Co-Op, meeting with the head of Lifegroups (which I will go into more), finishing up Hailee's reading/phonics curriculum, trying to entertain a 6 year old and 3 year old while trying to get the house unpacked, Hailee's gymnastics classes, a visit to Splashway water park, dentist appointments, birthday parties, leadership conference with our church, and all the other little things not mentioned. I am amazed at how much junk we have accumulated in 4 years... ridiculous!

The Lord has really been stirring in my heart to get out of my comfort zone and I began to contemplate that... then came across Lifegroups that our church has for the youth. I usually just work with 3-6 year olds... that is comfortable for me. I knew this new school year I needed a break, but still wanted to serve and be part of our church leadership. I started to check into Lifegroups and met with the woman who is in charge of them and we got to meet and talk a little about Lifegroups. I signed up! I knew this was something different that would push me and help me grow. I know I will have to depend on the Lord through this time... I will abide in him.

“I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes[a] so that it will be even more fruitful. You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.
“I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. If you do not remain in me, you are like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples." John 15:1-8

Beautiful picture of the branch and the vine as I remember back in Israel when we read this very passage and were looking at grape vines and discussing how it all worked. God is so wonderful! Tonight our church had their kick off Leadership meeting and I am all signed up to teach 10th grade girls on Sunday evenings. I am so excited!!! I can't wait to be part of God's might and power.

Now as I feel over blessed by this house and how God is leading me to these wonderful opportunities to be fruitful and disciple these young girls to be dangerous for their Lord and Savior. I can't help but wonder "What else God?"... "Is this it for right now?". About a month ago I was on Facebook and saw one of my friends mention a mission trip to India that was being scheduled again for January 2012. This trip has constantly been on my mind ever since. I finally emailed the lady leading it and found out a little more details. So, now I am just praying if the Lord wants me to go on this trip to continue to lead me, but if he doesn't to shut the doors. This evening I had the privilege to see Marty (my Rabbi), who lead me (and the group) through Israel for 10 days. I got to talk to him on what the Lord is doing in my life and I shared with him the opportunity to go to India and told him I was praying for the Lord's will and if he wants me to go on this trip to let me know. Marty said "Why?". He meant, why am I praying this. Doesn't he call us all to go out and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, and teach them to obey everything God has commanded? Why am I praying "God if you want me to go..."? He wants me to go... I am now to walk by faith... walk and follow the green lights... and stop if I see a red one (like Paul in Acts when the red light came up for him not to go to Mesopotamia).

"Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” Matthew 28:18-20

On our way home tonight I spoke to Bob about this... I told him about the conversation Marty and I had and I how I felt very strongly I should walk this path and continue. I told him we are ALL called to go to the nations and spread the good news (I do understand this looks different for everybody) and I really feel this is how the Lord wants me to do my part for his glory. Bob agreed, so I will be pursuing this mission trip and begin to plan and pray for the future.

So, if you would like to pray for me and Bob... Pray my heart would begin to prepare for what I will see and hear, pray for my quiet/Bible time to become increased, pray the Lord would provide in every way possible for this India trip, pray I would bring him glory through all I say and do, pray for Bob as he will be caring for the girls again, and pray my mom that she would be able to take time off work to come and help out like she did when I was in Israel. He has great and wonderful things planned out for all of our lives, but we have to be willing to say "Yes, Lord!" before we even know what he wants of us (this is something else Marty reminded me of this eveing). I heart that man.

I will be posting pictures very soon of everything that has been going on. Shalom!

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Where's the Sun?

When it rains... it pours...

This has been another crazy week and half... let me just say it is NOT easy to buy a house these days. There was none of this craziness when we bought this house 4 years ago. It was so easy! But... oh my... I have no plans to sell or buy a house again... God willing. Of course, if my God almighty has different plans then yes there will be different plans on our part. LOL! On top of this whole house situation and them wanting more money and more proof of different things... our A/C went out last Monday thankfully we were already dealing with our home warranty and an A/C company checking our A/C the week before, so it wasn't very hard to get everything lined up to get a new A/C unit. I am very thankful for our home warranty because it covered the majority of the cost. Praise God! Then this weekend we found out our garbage disposal had a crack in it, so time to replace it as well. Garbage disposals aren't much, but it was just another thing to add to the list. Then Monday morning Bob left me a note (he gets up way earlier than I) that the dishwasher was broken. Nice! One more thing... the Appliance guy came out to check out what was wrong and the pump was not working and we would need a new one. Nice! What else could I say, but replace it. LOL! It is almost to the point where I am going crazy (Bob too)... there is nothing we can do! LOL! Praise God for his provision and giving us the funds and the people to help us. I feel blessed in that part of it all. Do I like to go through this "suffering"... no, but I do like the growing and the trusting in the One that matters.

So, this evening I was cleaning up the kitchen and I was informed (by Bob) that they are trying to get us to close on our new house on Friday, July 29. HaHaHa!!! Yes, the craziness and crazy laughs are coming out again. Half of the house is packed, but the other half is not packed. LOL! I have a lot to get busy with... on top of this I am watching to news and it looks like we might get rain from a tropical storm on Friday. LOL! I think I should just go to bed... what do you think?

Saturday, July 16, 2011

A glimpse of His plan

If you have been following our housing situation... you will know it has been a rollercoaster ride. I began to question if God even wanted us to sell our house, but I had peace about it. Why would I feel one way one moment and feel another way another moment? I think the feelings just came on with my emotions. Praise God for his perfect provision of all our lives!

Last week, we sat and waited for people to come and look at our house. We had 2 different showings on Tuesday, July 5. It was a good day! We all had high hopes for God's divine plan, but as the week went on there were no more showings.

Sunday, came around and still no showings. I still had faith... I knew God had something planned, but who ever knows what it is... right? This could have been a plan to refine me and to teach me to completely trust in Him. I was learning to be on board with this thought... no matter how much it may hurt or be hard to just let him take care of it. Sunday evening, I called our Realtor about her new idea. They were trying to think of anything and everything on how to get our house out there. The first thing they thought of was a flyer... they would send it out to every Realtor in their ReMax office they are in (100+ Realtors) and let them know all this house has to offer. Then she brought up the idea of leasing our house. Yes, leasing... who would ever thought. Bob and I tossed around the idea and it began to seem possible. We were going to have to change loan types and go from an FHA to a Conventional loan... this meant more money down... Yikes! We kept thinking where all this money was going to come from... luckily God had this all planned out. I am not going to get into the details, but I am going to give God all the glory and praise for this one. :o)

So Monday night our house went active for lease. Crazy?... maybe? We qualified for the loan and all was good. An hour after putting our house up for lease our Realtor had a call from a lady who was ready to turn in her application... before she even looks at the property. The next day we had 5 people come look at our house and 3 applications turned in. Praise the Lord! With in 24 hours we had 3 potential tenants. Wednesday... we had 5 more people look at our house as well. That evening we sat down and went through the 3 applications from Tuesday and we picked a young couple that had moved from Austin to Houston for work. The young lady had called our Realtor that day because she was eager to know if we had picked a tenant yet... we ended up picking her, so when we called her she was happy and they were going to sign the lease agreement Friday night. I asked my Realtor "Why we didn't do this from the beginning?" She said "If we did this at the beginning the house we are wanting to buy wouldn't have been up for sell." So very true! God has this perfect plan and I am at complete Awe!

Now we are to pack pack pack... we close on our new house August 10 or sooner and the tenants of our house now are moving in August 12. I can't wait to see what else God has planned for our journey. :o) Thank you for your prayers.

Friday, July 15, 2011

3 years and counting...

Heidi turned 3 years old July 6. It made me go back in time and remember how little she was and the day of her birth. She is such a special little girl and full of all kinds of spunk and sass. I say all the time "Heidi is lucky she is so stinkin' cute..." LOL! Here are some pictures of her on the day of her birthday and from her birthday party.

We got her a Tinkerbell Stylin' Set. She and Hailee can beautify each other all day long.

We also got her a preschool Uno game and Tinkerbell slippers. Yes, Heidi thinks she is Tinkerbell. :o)

Here Hailee and Heidi are helping me make cupcakes for Heidi's birthday party. Yes, they also tested the batter to make sure is was safe for our friends. :o)

Here Heidi is having a good time swimming at her party.

Here Heidi is blowing out her candles. :o)

Heidi with her sweet friend, Charlotte.

Heidi posing for the camera. She is so cute!

This is Heidi's gift from Grammy. She was so happy to have a cool stroller to push her baby around in. Thanks Grammy!

Heidi in her Chef's outfit from her friend, Sarah. Thanks Ely and Sarah!
It was a great celebration! I can't wait to see what the Lord has in the years ahead for our sweet Heidi. Praise be to God for creating Heidi and giving us the privilege to raise her.

Monday, July 11, 2011

Truth that I am holding onto.

"Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade. This inheritance is kept in heaven for you, who through faith are shielded by God’s power until the coming of the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time. In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, for you are receiving the end result of your faith, the salvation of your souls." 1 Peter 1:3-9

Complete Truth I am holding onto as we go through the unknown. My God, is complete. I need nothing more, but Him... I am seeking the unseen and believing in Him and His perfect plan.

Friday, July 8, 2011

Peace in the Unknown

Today, I feel a lot better and I know the only reason I feel better is from my Helper and Comforter. Thank you all for praying and praying for my heart to be comforted. My heart was hard and sad, but I feel lighter and more at peace. I was looking for a certain verse where I remember reading about the Helper, but couldn't find it, but instead found these...

"There is no fear in love. But, perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love." 1 John 4:18

"This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us. And if we know that He hears us- we know that we have what we asked of Him." 1 John 5:14-15

"You who are my Comforter in sorrow, my heart is faint within me." Jeremiah 8:18

Who knows what is going to happen with our house on Victoria Lakes, but I do have comfort that it will be okay and He has a perfect plan and I can't wait to see the end result. Please continue to pray that our hearts will be with Him and on His path.

We still have faith in this weekend that their will be showings on our house. Please continue to pray with us and God perfect plan.

"These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, for you are receiving the end result of your faith, the salvation of your souls." 1 Peter 1:7-9

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Pain in the Unknown

I haven't written about what is going on with our house, because 1. I have been overwhelmed by it all, 2. It hasn't gone as planned and to be honest I feel a little embarrassed (not quite sure why I feel like this), and 3. I am hurt, mad, sad, impatient, and once again overwhelmed. So, I am going to start from the beginning....

So here in Texas (not sure how it works where you are) you have an option period of 5 or 7 days (I think). The option period is when you have the inspector come out to inspect every inch of the house and then negotiate back and forth on what you want done. The buyer for our home, his option period ended Monday, July 4 and our option period on our new house on Victoria Lakes ended Wednesday, July 6. We scheduled our inspection on our new house on Victoria Lakes on Wednesday, June 29 and we had it done. We kept waiting and waiting for the buyer of our house to schedule an appointment to have the inspection done, but never heard from him... until I got a knock on the door Friday, July 1 at about 1:00 pm. I had absolutely no idea they were coming! It was naptime for Heidi and we were not prepared to leave our home. I told the inspector this and he called the Realtor. The Realtor completely forgot 1. that she had to call the showing company to schedule an appointment and 2. that the property was still occupied. Personally, that is something you just do not forget when you are a Realtor. Anyways... thankfully the inspector was able to reschedule for Saturday morning. Talk about last minute... especially with a holiday weekend.

Saturday, the inspector came out and he did his thing. We got a call from our Realtor when they were done, so we knew when we could go home. After she told us we could go home she said "I just want to give you a heads up... the inspector spoke to the Realtor briefly about the inspection and the inspector said there were sever foundation issues." I was shocked! That wasn't even an issue we were worried about... foundation! Anyways... my mind wouldn't stop. I wanted to take action, but we weren't going to have the results of the inspection until Sunday. Nice... right? Fourth of July weekend... for you foreigners... our Independence Day... the birthday of America. :o) I had to take action, so we decided to call foundation specialists to see when the soonest they could come out. I called 4 specialist and I either left a message or spoke to someone to find out that it would be 2 weeks before someone could do an estimate.... finally I called the 4th specialist... He could come out Monday, July 4. Praise the Lord! I wanted to do more, but that was all I could do. Let me just say there has been a lot of praying.

Sunday, we were supposed to get the inspection report... the day went on and no inspection report... the day continued on and still no inspection report. Come to find out he hadn't even given it to his Realtor. The buyer was holding onto the inspection report... not sharing it with us, so maybe we could discuss and negotiate. We continued to be in the unknown... not knowing how the buyer is feeling or what he wanted to do.

Monday, 4th of July... the foundation specialist called and was coming out at 4:00 and I was instantly on the phone with our Realtor to let the buyer know that he was welcome to come out when the foundation guy comes out. So then our Realtor calls back and lets us know that the buyer is coming out and he was completely consumed by the foundation issues and the A/C (our A/C is old but still works just fine). He was scared it would go out on him... blah blah blah, but he still wanted to push on and continue to pursue our home. I felt good about that... I felt good because it made me see he had some attachment to our house... just like I am attached to the house we are going to buy. So, 4:00 pm began to roll around... then knock knock knock... the foundation specialist was here 30 min. early. I got on the phone immediately to let everyone know what was going on. Our Realtor was coming out to be there for the inspection as well. The inspector told us there was a little foundation issue BUT it was not severe and it wasn't going to cost us much to fix it. Our Realtor got there heard it all (the inspector retold what was going on) and then I said "The buyer should be here soon." Then I was told he wasn't coming. The inspector left and we all went inside to discuss what was going on. The buyer was backing out... yes, you heard it right... to make a long story short we decided to 1. fix the foundation (of course) and to get the buyer back we would 2. fix the A/C- hoping to be able to get it bought out by our home warranty. So, our Realtor called the buyers Realtor to let her know what we were purposing and to let the buyer know. She called back about 30 minutes later and he was back on board! We extended his option period 1 day so, they could get the contract all drawn up for us to sign. Oh by the way, everything has been going great and smoothly with our home we were buying on Victoria Lakes.

Tuesday came around and all day our Realtor was checking her email and checking her phone and didn't hear anything. Around 3:00 pm I got an email that was forwarded to me from my Realtor from the buyers Realtor and it was a list of 12 other things he wanted on top of the foundation fixed and new A/C. Bob and I were disgusted! We were so done with him, but we still wanted our house we had falling in love with on Victoria Lakes. As we were trying to take in this list and how he was trying to nickel and dime us for every penny... the buyers Realtor emailed our Realtor and said she would like to know if we were going to do everything on the list and if she should get the amendment paper typed up or the other contract (meaning the termination contract). We were mad... so we came back to the buyer with our negotiations. 3 options for him to pick from... he came back a few hours later and backed out. This wasn't a negotiation this turned into a demand list (on his part).

Truthfully, I feel sick by all of this... we lost the house I was dreaming about... the house I felt the Lord had waiting for us. Thankfully Wednesday when our Realtor called the Realtor on Victoria Lakes and told her about the situation and how we would like a little more time... the Realtor for Victoria Lakes went to the sellers and they gave us 5 more days to find a new buyer for our house with no charge. What a blessing... right? So, that is where we are now. Our house went back active on the market yesterday and yesterday we had 2 showings. Praise the Lord! We have heard back from one (not interested), but we haven't heard from the other Realtor (only time will tell). As we wait... I am sad... sad about a house (yes I feel stupid about being sad over a house)... I am mad... yes, I am mad at the buyer for backing out and I am mad at God for hurting me and my family with this whole situation. I have been praying and praying and praying for this whole situation.... praying for His glory and trying to give it to Him. Praying He would use me and this new house to whatever He wants it for. I just want to do His work here on this earth. I felt like I have been doing what he wants (maybe not always perfectly or it may take me a while to give something up)... maybe I am wrong. I am just sad and hurt!

Now I wait... wait for what God has planned, but I am waiting in sadness and in anger. Don't get me wrong... I know God does not always bless us in the way we think He should, but I truly thought with every being in my body that this was His plan. Maybe it still is... maybe I need to just be patient, but it is hard when my heart is hurt. Then I turn this hurt around and think it is so stupid... I think of people in Uganda and other countries, who are starving and don't have the shelter over their head like we do... I think about people in Asia and other countries, who are living for Christ and doing His work and living dangerously for Him. Here I crying and angry about a house. SO STUPID!!! But, this house was going to be used for whatever he had desired it for. GOD, WHAT DO YOU WANT OF ME? I AM HURT AND I KNOW YOU KNOW THIS... HEAL AND SOFTEN MY HEART, LORD. LEAD ME ON YOUR PATH. BLESS ME BY WHAT PLEASES YOU.

Friday, July 1, 2011

Do we die at 100??

A little while ago (out of no where) I was asked by Hailee "Do we die at 100?" My reply to her was "Well... sometimes people live to be a 100, but not always." I told her, "We all die. It is part of life and God's plan." I don't think she really appreciated my answer... I think it hurt her feelings, because after that she began to sob on the couch. I was cleaning floors and heard her crying. I asked her "Are you okay?" She said "No, I don't want to die. I don't want to go to heaven." I really felt the pull of the Spirit to talk with her one on one on what she was feeling. So we went to my room and I began to ask her why she didn't want to go to heaven. Well... duh... she doesn't want to die. I told her "You are going to live a long time. You are going to go to college, get married, have babies, and watch your kids grow up." (God willing) I tried to comfort her by telling her you will live 70+ years. I said "I haven't even lived 70 years, Grammy hasn't even live 70 years, but Mommo has and look she is still alive." Hailee smiled. I think she felt a little better, so we came back to the living room to finish watching Beauty and the Beast and I continued on with my chores. As I cleaned I prayed the Lord would comfort her and maybe stir more inside of her and convict her.

So, naptime came around and I was getting Heidi ready to take a nap and I got her down. During this time Hailee has her quiet time in her room to color, play, etc. Before I left her I asked her if she was okay and she said yes. So, I left and continued on with a few things I had to tend too. I then heard her crying in her room. I went to see if she was okay and she was sobbing again. I told her to come with me, so I could sit with her and we could have a conversation. I asked Hailee "What is wrong?". She said "I want to go where you are going?". I said "Well I am going to heaven. Are you going to go to heaven?". She replied "I don't know, but I want to go where you are going." I asked her "Do you believe you are a sinner? Do you believe Jesus was sent here by God to die for your sins and my sins?" She said "Yes.". I asked her if she wanted to pray and receive Christ as her Savior and she said yes. We prayed together a sweet prayer. A prayer of thanking the Lord for this day, a prayer that she will be a mighty woman of God, a prayer she would be dangerous for her generation, and a prayer that she would grow to love Him as much as He loves her. A sweet moment of tears and joy.

As I was writing this she came out of her room (after sobbing) and began to ask me questions and saying she wants to go where I am going... she seemed very worried. We talked again... I asked her if her sin was bothering her and she nodded her head. I told her do you want to pray and ask God to forgive you of your sinful self and she said yes. She prayed a sweet quiet prayer that I couldn't really understand, but I know God could and had confidence in that. When she was done I told her you are now going to heaven with me and daddy. She said "What about Heidi?" and began to tear up. I told her "If something was going to happen to Heidi she was going to heaven. I told her God holds a special place for little ones." She cried, but that gave her comfort. She is concerned if there will be toys in heaven, if there will be food, if our eyes will be open, etc. I didn't really have answers for her (except the eye question... I said yes.) and I told her I have never been to heaven and we will just have to wait and see. :o)

This has been a glorious day! A day I have been waiting for and praying for... Praise be to God for His love and patience.

"These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, for you are receiving the end result of your faith, the salvation of your souls." 1 Peter 1:7-9

Monday, June 27, 2011

He blows me away...

God has (and always) been doing amazing things in our lives these last few days and I really really want to share and bring Him the glory. Not quite sure of His master plan... of course, but I know He is up to something.

We have had our house on the market for 5 months! I was beginning to grow very weary and began to doubt what I thought God wanted from us. On Thursday, I started a book study at our church and the book I am reading is called Radical by David Pratt. I knew this book was going to help me by giving me a boost to live my life in a radical way, but of course I was scared. On my way home (after our first meeting with the book study) I was asking God if we were supposed to keep our house on the market. I told Him I was growing weary and just could not do it anymore. As I was in constant thought of the house and Him I realized I hadn't checked my phone to see if anyone had called (always have to check for missed calls when your house is up for sale)... so I checked and I had 12 missed calls! All the missed calls were from my husband, Bob and the showing company that calls to confirm the appointments. I quickly called Bob and he told me the house was being shown a 2nd time. I was in a panic because the house was not at all in showing appearance (beds weren't made, dishes in the sink, dog in the house, etc.). Bob told me it didn't matter... it was the 2nd showing! Well of course it doesn't matter to a man, but it surely mattered to me! LOL! Luckily, I was able to run in the house help our Realtors (who are friends of ours) chase our dog out into the backyard, make our bed, and pick up a few loose ends. I felt pretty okay by the appearance. I left... it showed... an now we wait...

During naptime/quiet time (in the middle of the day after the showing) I was able to begin reading the 1st chapter of Radical and couldn't put it down and I began to sob at the end of the chapter and prayed...

"I commit to what ever You say. I say yes to the words You will speak before I even hear them. I commit to obey to what I hear. I want to know You. I want to experience You. I want to be part of a people who delight in You like the brothers and sisters in underground Asia who have nothing but You. And I want to be part of a people who are risking it all for You. For the sake of more than a billion people today who have yet to even hear the gospel, I want to risk it all. For the sake of 26,000 children who will die today of starvation or a preventable disease, I want to risk it all. For the sake of an increasingly marginalized and relatively ineffective church in our culture, I want to risk it all. For the sake of my life, my family, and the people who surround me, I want to risk it all. In the process of hearing You, Jesus, I am compelled to take an honest look at my life, my family, and my church and not just ask, "What is he saying?" but also ask, "What shall I do?".

This prayer scared the poo out of me and that is why I sobbed while I prayed, but it felt good to give it up. Who knows what God's plan is, but I know if I continue with His will... we will be okay.

We heard nothing all day and night about the 2nd showing... until 10:30 pm my realtor called and said we had an offer! All I could think about was... Praise God! It was a very low offer ($12,000 lower from our asking price), so we went back with a counteroffer and did that one more time and the buyer accepted an offer from us that met right in the middle. Praise the Lord!!!

So, next was attack mode! We went out on Saturday in search for a new home for us to live in so we wouldn't have to be homeless. LOL!! We looked all day!! Then the last house we looked at was PERFECT!!! It was exactly what we wanted and needed and it is in a beautiful neighborhood. The house was only on the market for 14 days and there was only one other person that had looked at it and there was talk they were going to make an offer. We rushed out of the house and quickly went over to our Realtors house and they submitted the offer. We knew we had to beat the other buyers, because we knew the seller didn't care how much you offered to who they would pick to work with, but all that mattered was who got to them first with an offer and WE DID!!! We put our offer in and got confirmation that night that they had accepted it and were going to sign the contract to get the ball rolling. Praise the LORD!!! We close in a month. Nothing can ever get in the way of His master plan.

The house has 5 bedrooms... it is awesome to have all this space and not know what to do with it all... but my thoughts are what is God going to do with those extra rooms? He has a master plan and I have already said "yes!" so, now it is time for Him to work on Bob's heart to be on board. I know nothing is to big for my BIG God!

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Ocean Lapbook

This is the lapbook Hailee has been working on for the last couple of weeks. I will say she did learn a few things... she learned about creators that live in the tide pools, she learned about her 5 senses... well really that they are called your 5 senses LOL!, she learned about sea gulls, and we did a science experiment yesterday on salt water and fresh water and which one an egg would float in. Pretty nifty! And to top this all off it was FREE from This is the BEST website ever because it gives you FREE ideas and instrustions on how to liven up your homeschooling. Anyways... I hope you enjoy!

Here is the inside of the lapbook

Hailee recaping what she learned about Sea Gulls.

This was fun and I look forward to doing another lapbook soon.

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Help Fill the Van!

I have mentioned this family in previous blogs, but this one is a PLEA! A plea to HELP them raise enough money to get the 3 children they have been given by the LORD home. You can donate $10 and get entered to win an iPad2! We make these gambles everyday with our money... please consider given to them. You can also see to the left of the blog all that the money has and will be going toward.

CLICK HERE: Help Fill the Van!!!!

Monday, June 20, 2011

Live it out...

Yesterday, I began my adventure of living 'dangerously' for the Lord. As I posted in my last post there was an opportunity to go out and help the homeless of Houston. After church, we went out with 4 cars full of gallon jugs of frozen/cold water (over 100 jugs) and headed downtown to where the homeless hang out and live. We parked our cars in this empty parking lot and they all began to walk towards us. They were all very kind, courteous, and very thankful. One man was telling us "Our water is the best!". "Whoever believes in me, as Scripture has said, rivers of living water will flow from within them." John 7:38. Another man was asking if we had a Bible. God is truly revealing to us the needs for His people... water, ritz crackers and trail mix, and Bibles. Praise be to the LORD God almighty for His provision and the Holy Spirit that abides in us.

This morning I was talking to a good friend of mine, who I pray with and we were talking about this family who is adopting 3 orphans from the Ukraine area (there donation button is on the top left hand side of my blog called bring Elliot home).Really though... they were initially adopting 1 child, but when they went a few weeks ago to the Ukraine to visit with Elliot and get paper work in order they found 2 other little ones that they were convinced were theirs as well. Anyways... to make a long story short, my friend and I were talking about how the people who are 'taking care' of Elliot don't believe in the sanctity of life and believe Elliot doesn't have anything to give and is worthless. This tug at my heart to tears. It made me think and realize there are so many kids in this world that aren't given a chance... a chance to be the full potential that God made them to be, because there are people holding them back and not giving them the chance to know what love is. "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." Psalm 139:13-14. Nothing God does is by accident... NOTHING!

My heart breaks for kids like this... so know I ask God "What does this mean?"... "What do you want of me!?".

"I call with all my heart; answer me, LORD,
and I will obey your decrees.
I call out to you; save me
and I will keep your statutes.
I rise before dawn and cry for help;
I have put my hope in your word.
My eyes stay open through the watches of the night,
that I may meditate on your promises.
Hear my voice in accordance with your love;
preserve my life, LORD, according to your laws.
Those who devise wicked schemes are near,
but they are far from your law.
Yet you are near, LORD,
and all your commands are true.
Long ago I learned from your statutes
that you established them to last forever." Psalm 119:145-152

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Living Dangerously

I have said before that I feel like my calling is for the lost... to speak the truth or read the truth along side them. To be a light of God in darkness. I yearn to live dangerously for the Lord. I wonder what the Lord wants of me... Does He want me to be dangerous here in my hometown? Does He want me to travel to other nations and be dangerous for His Truth there? I have so many questions... I truly believe the answer is "YES!" for both.

I need to put myself out there more in my community. I wonder "How?"... for instance we (my family) are going out Sunday after church to give the homeless water... not just any water... COLD FROZEN GALLON JUGS!! It is so hot here in Houston! Just going in and out of a store takes your breath away and you begin to sweat. A friend of mine came up with an idea from the Spirit as she was riding her bike in this heat and was dying of thirst. She then emailed a few of us to see if we were interested in providing water and delivering it to the homeless. Praise the Lord for her and how in-tune she is to the prompting of the Holy Spirit.

I have felt for a while now that I want to go to the nations and spread the good news of our Lord Jesus Christ, but not really sure where to go from here. Actually it is more than a "I want too." it is more like I feel the pulling and tugging to make it happen... but I also feel a little apprehensive. The reason for this post is because I watched a video that a pastor from our church put together. Click 'here' to watch it. So beautiful and it stirs something inside of me.

If you would like and don't mind... pray for me. Pray the Lord would reveal what He wants of me and give me the discernment to understand His leading. Thanks so much!

Monday, June 13, 2011


Lately my thoughts have been consumed by God's sovereignty (I hope I am using this word correctly). There have been different situations going on lately and through every situation I have been reminded through friends how sovereign He is. Then it makes me think about how love sick our sovereign God is of us. Yes, things happen in our life that hurt so bad we question His goodness, but He continues to always be there to hold us up and collect our tears... He is never changing.

I am overwhelmed by the unspeakable name of God. I shouldn't even be able to speak His name because of my sinful self. I am not deserving to speak His name... but because of His sovereignty, grace, and mercy I am given this freedom and opportunity and He loves me just the same. I have been given this insight (if you will) of my nasty sin that I do EVERY SINGLE DAY... I repent more and more everyday and I am more aware of this unpleasing and sadding of God's heart. Not that I will ever know how I displease Him, but I am thankful for the Spirit which is convicting but comforting all at the same time.

I have been looking for this Bible verse that I came across the other night, but CAN NOT find it (so irritating!). I have been so determined to find this verse, but still can not. I keep thinking it was in 1 or 2 Timothy, but I just can not find it. Anyways... so now I am trying to find the 2nd most perfect verse, but then I have realized there is no such thing. They are all PERFECT!! His word is unspeakably wonderful perfect loving and full of comfort.

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Preschool Lapbooks

I am completely in love with 1+1+1=1. It's the most wonderful blog that provides all kinds of FREE preschool "school" work for Heidi and Hailee enjoys doing some of the activities as well! Here are some pictures of Heidi with her 2 lapbooks she has completed in the last couple of days. She LOVES having "school" work to do, so she can be just like Hailee. Enjoy!

Heidi putting away her alphabet cards in the pocket.

Here is a picture of Heidi's first lapbook. All about Dora :o)

Heidi reading about Dora and Boots. She looks at the pictures and tells me the story.

Heidi's second lapbook about sea animals. I was totally impressed that she new her numbers.

Here she is telling me how many sea animals are on the page.

She is VERY proud of her work!

Hailee is working on a sea creature lapbook as well, but her book takes a little more time. I will post pictures of it when it is completed. :o)